Gone
© 2002 Shelly
There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
Seems too long ago you walked way
Left me alone
And I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
And maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change

I roll over in the bed and groan as the cold sheets touch my bare back. The cold sheets where Baylee used to sleep. If only we hadn't argued so much. If only she could see how miserable I am without her. Maybe she'd come home.

Who am I kidding? She was miserable with me. I'm miserable with me. I just wish that I could tell her that it wasn't her that made me argue. It was my damn pride. I hate not being able to work and I took it out on her. I guess she put up with all she could and then just left.

Was it something I said to make you turn away
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that she'll be right here right now

Baylee...my princess. I miss you so much. God I wish you were here. Even when I got depressed about not working you used to cheer me up. Now...you won't be here to do that.

I don't wanna make excuses babe
Won't change the fact that your gone
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know
Time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
Baby I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to
So I'll just hang around and find some things to do
Take my mind off missing you
And I know in my heart you can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do

We wouldn't have argued so much if I had a steady job....no that's just a sorry excuse. We wouldn't have argued so much if I wasn't an asshole. I had a good thing in my life and I lost her.

The doorbell rings and I pull myself out of bed. I peek out of the peep hole and see Matt, Jeff and Shane standing there. With a sigh I open the door and let them in.

"Hey," they all say cheerfully.

"Dude you look like crap," Jeff says with a smile.

"Thanks," I reply and walk over to the couch.

"So you ready to go to the gym," Shane asks taking a seat next to me.

"That's today," I ask trying to figure out what day it is. Truth be told I haven't been able to get out of bed much these days.

"Yeah," Matt says. "Come on. It'll do ya good to get out of the house."

"Nah," I reply. "I don't feel much like goin' to the gym."

"What do you feel like doing," Jeff asks.

"Nothing," I reply and they all give me their sympathetic faces. "Why don't you guys go. I gotta finish going through some things that used to be Baylee's anyway." They shrug and get up to leave.

"Shan please call if you need anything," Shane says clapping me on the back. "You know we're here for you."

"I know," I say trying my best to muster a smile for them. "Thanks guys." I wave as they pull out of the driveway and shut the door once they're gone.

Oh what willl I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me

I lean my back against the door and slide to the floor. I just can't believe that she's really gone. I keep expecting her to just walk right through the door. "What am I supposed to do now? How can I move on when I still want you in my life?"

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone
You're gone
You're gone
You're gone
You're gone
You're gone
But the truth remains
You're....

I feel the tears stinging my eyes. I've been fighting them since she left, but now I let them fall freely. She was my life and now she's gone.

Lyrics courtesy of the *NSYNC song Gone from the Celebrity album.
Back to Main