Numb
© 2004 Shelly
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

David Flair sat staring into space as his father lectured him once again. He had grown so tired of his father ragging on him for not following in his footsteps. How can anyone expect to follow in the great Ric Flair's footsteps? David just felt lost with every passing day. He tried his best and still it wasn't enough for Ric. He doubted he could ever live up to what Ric wanted of him. Somehow over the years he had lost who he was and he just didn't know how to get it back now.

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

Ric droned on and on about his many accomplishments. David felt the air in the room growing thicker. It became harder to breathe and he gasped for air. Ric didn't seem to notice his son struggling to breathe and only broke from his lecture when David rose and began to leave the room. He ignored his father's cries and ran outside to get some much needed air.

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

David's breath came in short rasps as he tried desperately to feel something....anything. All he wanted to do was to be himself. He had let his father mold him and over the years he had lost his personality. Something had to be done and it had to be done now.

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

"Where did you think you were going," Ric demanded.

"I'm tired of this," David replied. "This isn't my dream, dad, it's yours. I'm tired of trying to please you. I'm not wrestling anymore. I don't want to be like you. I want to be myself, who ever that is now." With that he walked away from his dumbfounded father.

Lyrics courtesy of the Linkin Park song Numb from the Meteora album.
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